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Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Oh wells. Had been wanting to talk 'bout 2009 for a very long time, thinking of what to type out in here when i'm bored, on my way to work, while in a shower, in the bus/train or whatever you can think of! (I know this may be too early to post this up, 'cause i seriously cannot find time to do this. Em.. like lets say near to the last day of 2009?)
(On a side note, am using the desktop now and am so not used to the keyboard... 'Cause my notebook is now at the Service Centre and is going to be of a better one soon!)
Yup. I know i had mentioned how much i wanted to skipped year 2008 and go on to 2009... And it was indeed slightly better this year. To be honest, i actually learnt alot, had a stronger character than before and am very independent now, please feel proud for me 'cause i am telling the truth!
I used to be the seriously stupid girl, the most dumbest girl you can ever think of. I dont know why i said that but i find that i was really dumb enough, and i really really liked what i had became today. 'Cause people always say we only learnt when we met something terrible. (Though it wasnt that terrible to some like deaths... But it was really bad enough for me to handle, it was like my depression period and you wont know whats going on in my mind, they were really... Scary!)
Well lets not talk 'bout that 'cause i've moved on and every one has to, no?
Besides that i did a lot of evil stuffs too... Hmm... (Okay, only 1 really bad one.) But i felt so bad after that that i sweared not to bother a single shyt of it or being kaypo in the future.
Other than that, what i got most was... More clothes in my wardrobe, bags in my cupboard, shoes in the storeroom and accessories on my table!! Heeeee They're of my hard earned money which contains my blood and sweat (Although i worked in an air-conditioned place and am not required to kill anyone to see blood or what-so-ever), and the never-ending sai kang work that i have to do!
However, they were all worth it. Ever since this so called "stable" part-time job which i had stayed with for more than a year, i did not take allowance from my parents anymore and is paying for my own bills, transport, food, other needs etc etc.
May be tough at times, but at least i learned to control the money i earned and resist temptations which i might fail at times and then suffer after that... :-/
I'm complacent despite the fact that i'm single. There were times that my friends asked me questions like.. "So... When are you going to get yourself a boyfriend." or "Why don't you give XXX a chance." or "Are you looking for a rich and handsome guy.". And then i'll always reply, "Aiya, i dont have time la!" or just a single reply, "Dont want.".
And sometimes more deep into the conversation, i will tell em' my true thinking...
I'm pleased with how's my life is going on now, i dont see a reason to change it, and sad to say, i am an extremely busy person, so busy that i do not have time for extra stuffs. HAHAHAHA. (I always tell that to my close friends) You can tell by the number of times i blogged per week, the super short post each time it gets and the number of times i called up my dear friends to meet em' up or even spent time with my family members.
Anyway, i got no idea how i managed to spend the time here typing out, thinking and trying to get my grammer correct when i am supposed to be sleeping as i needa wake up at 8 plus later. But just a few more which i think is the most important of all...
I know i am not the most perfect person or even the best the person each of you have met. I just wanna apologize if i did anything cruel to anyone of you (i cant think of any now 'cause i felt that i did loads of terrible things this year as compared to the other years i had been through).
Worst of all, i had not attend church for nearly a year. I always tell myself that i wanna drop by to attend service but because of the temptations that is leading me to, i couldnt get myself to go to church any way. (I KNOW THIS IS AN EXCUSE BUT PLEASE JUST READ ON!!!)
Yeah, i may not go to church now, but i will do so in the future, when i had enough of... Life. I mean... Enough fun. I know this is the worst thing that i can ever say it here, bet God will be super upset with me. But ya, i'm honest enough alright. So please, to whoever that goes "Orh hor..." when i tell em' this. I'm being honest here.
And hey! Thanks for reading till here... Hope that this is the nicest post i did so far. :D And Merry X'mas!