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Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Urm. I'm feeling much better now, it was like earlier than I thought. I'd been crying myself to sleep for the past few nights. It actually took me hours before I got settled down and fell asleep. I'm don't think I'm going to do that anymore. I text-ed J last night to so called talk things out, it also meant 'goodbye', but actually- see you again soon, 'cause I was hoping to be back with him again some day. I know the chances is like a tiny little part of my last finger. Well, that's just part of my wish list. I also sent a text each to my 3 angels, thanking em' for that day when it almost gona be like a breakdown for me. Just wana let em know I was thankful for their presence. 9:31 AM | 6 Comments Sunday, February 24, 2008
Tears that can't seem to stop Today was a day I lost a love one and also a day I regain back the friendship I used to have with the girls. I don't know if everything was planned or fated to be, but I'm still glad that God sent these angels to me. We met up at lot one, we chatted from Ya Kun shop to fittness corner to Mcdonald's, we sure have alot to chat. They really took away quite a lot of saddness within me, but I still have to deal with the rest myself. So much habit, so much memories and now I have to get rid of em'. I'm not gona wait, I'll just go with whatever that comes into my way. I really do love this guy and so don't wish to let him go. xoxo goodbye love- 5:54 PM | 3 Comments Saturday, February 23, 2008
I'm so excited after posting my previous post because I knew that I'm going to post out the photos in my next post of what I've did for Jonathan after giving it to him. Now, I'm so not excited and proud of showing it out when the owner of receiving this thing is not bothering 'bout it. I feel like throwing it away, you show no interest in wanting it when I'm waiting for you to take the initiative to ask it from me. I got like tons of things to say but I don't know how to express em' in words. I seriously need someone to talk to and that freaking bastard- Jonathan Ng Jun En, is just not bothering about me. Okay, I'm fine with that. Yeap, super. 'Course I know you are just going to say that I'm not bothering 'bout you either. You simply know nuts about me. Oh great. He just ruined my day. Haha. 8:54 AM | 1 Comments Monday, February 18, 2008
I'm so so sick, stay away from me if ya don't want to get sick too. ;) Weeeee! I'm done with the late V day's gift and I'm so so happy with the result. (: Except for the photos I printed. (Duh) I will show em' in my blog after I've pass it to my loverboy. Okay, I got quite a number of things to complain to you guys. Are you ready? :D . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Initally, I had wasted like 3 lamination sheets and found out that the size I got was way too small to fill in the photos. So I got bigger lamination sheets again just now from Daiso. And also the photos, they were spoilt, so I had to get em' printed again. I went to the one at IMM. Damn with the price, its so expensive! Rarr. 1 buck for one photo. Omg man. Then I spent 6bucks for all the photos. Rarr. And you know what? The effect of the photos were rubbish too, the ones I printed previously at Limbang were so much better than em'. I'm really very angry 'bout it, felt like I'm being cheated or something like that. zzZ. Anyway, I've been eating M&Ms these few days. (Actually, just two days) Haha. This limited edition, crispy mint flavour.   It's super nice! But I can't get em' from alot of places, however, I can find em' somewhere near my place. (: Okay, I just receive a text from Sam saying that she will be flying on board tomorrow at 630pm. So yup, take care! :D 2:37 PM | 3 Comments Sunday, February 17, 2008
I'm so damn sick this morning and now I can fly! Haha. Okay, seriously, this morning was terrible, I almost faint. No joke please. 'Course if I faint, you will have to visit me in the hospital. I couldn't see anything, I'm only seeing black. Plus the vomiting which made me puke out nothing 'course my stomach is totally empty and the cramps. How lucky I am to not puke out anything, if I do, I'll be crying next. Don't you think puking something out is so f pain? Things are always going down when one day, its going up and out. My parents kept nagging at me 'bout yesterday for going out when I'm not feeling very well already. I got no choice right? The tickets are with my loverboy already, it will be a waste if I don't go isn't it? Never mind, forget 'bout all those things when I'm feeling so much better already. :D Three cheers for watching the movie already! Yeap yeap. I'm so so happy to watch Jumper and now I feel like jumping. (: (I meant jumping around the world, not jumping off a building and down.) Man. It's so nice. Thumbs up! But I don't get it why are they called jumpers, they should be called teleport-ers instead. They look as though they're teleporting, not jumping. Don't you think its so cool to be like em'? So fast and yah, save alot of their energy and time. Even other super heros can't beat em'. Like Superman, for example he lives in USA, and he has to travel to some where very very far to save someone. I don't think he will be able to reach there safely, he might have caught in some hurricane and died. *laughs* And spiderman, he would not have enough webs to reach there. *laughs again* Jon was so lame after watching the show, he said he can be like the jumpers too. And he showed me by hopping around. -______- We did nothing much yesterday, the movie, shopped around Vivo and chill at some cafe I once went with my church friends. We didn't manage to get to sit on the swings. ):   OH yeah! Got photoshop in my comp again! (: 8:46 AM | 0 Comments Saturday, February 16, 2008
Man oh man. I'm having a very bad sore throat, lumps of things are like stuck in my throat, how I wish I can open my throat real wide and dig out whatever is inside causing so much pain for me. Hah! I guess its because of the two large spicy potato chips I ate yesterday. (Yum!) I took the medicine already, I'm going to turn sleepy soon.. Yesterday was V Day.... :D I received a bouquet of tulips from Jon! (:(: First time to a bouquet and first time to tulips. Oh gosh. You didn't know how happy I were. I thought I'm going to receive a red rose like last year again. Haha. Know what? Mom saw Jon accidently, I'm not sure if she knows he's my bf? But never mind, Jon told me she was like smiling at him. lalala~   & that so called dead photo he gave me. Haha   Pardon me for the photos, 'course I'm really very happy to receive em' like what every other girls will as well. :D We watched Ah Long Pte Ltd at Lot 1 yesterday. Lols. It's been years since I watched a movie at Lot 1. Garrr. The way Mark Lee speaks is so irritating. Yes yes! My loverboy got the tickets for Jumper already! :DDD & we are going to get two free popcorns plus drinks. (Damn) I don't think I'll be able to eat the popcorns. Oh yup. Just before I end my post, I want to show you guys this few cute photos from an email my mom sent it to me.    
3:07 AM | 0 Comments Thursday, February 14, 2008
I love Wednesday! 'Course Wednesday meant I can wake up 1 hour later than the usual 6am I woke up everyday for school. (: Weeeee! Tomorrow is V Day(Happy V Day, Jon! ♥♥♥) and I've yet to get a lot of things prepared. I'll be needing alot more days to do that little presenie. I can't wait to see what Jon's gona give me tml, I hope its the 24K gold plated ferris wheel with swarovski crystals I saw on the newspaper? Haha. But I know I'll be getting a balloon.. (Duh. He thought I'm still a small girl when I'm turning 18 in like 100 over days?) Oh yeah, the Singapore Flyer is spinning already, but what I read on the newspaper was that it will only be opening to the public on 1st March. :D :D I bet the tickets are like fully booked already, and I don't know when will Jon be bringing me to ride on that ferris wheel. Today is like nice, I didn't know Mr Rao is such a humorous person? Haha. Okay. The few of us played 21 dots(dian) in school. Well, I'm neither winning nor losing. Hehheh. Kind of lucky isn't it? :D I want to watch Jump, Jump, Jumper! 1:46 PM | 0 Comments Monday, February 11, 2008
Great. I missed the movie, 27 dresses. >:( And we watched Juno instead, this NC16 movie. Hehheh. It was my first time watching a movie that is not rated G or PG. And now, I felt like I'm exposed to more things. Haha. Whatever~   (Damn) I look fugly here. 8:45 AM | 1 Comments Saturday, February 09, 2008
 Oh yeah, shuai ge-s~~~~ Hahah. (ps: I love the centre one :P) I bet Jon is gona complain to me 'bout seeing and talking 'bout handsome guys again. HAHA! I still can remember how he pangseh me at The Pacific Plaza while I was looking at the super big poster of em' loh! Rarr! I'm almost done with collecting my angbaos, are you? Well, I'm not surprised if I can't get over 100bucks again, this year? 'Course you see, my relatives from my mom's side are all Msians, so obviously, they stay in Msia, and it will be kind of troublesome to visit both sides of my relatives each year. Plus the little days of holidays we get for CNY each year? (Duh!) Every year's visitation, my relatives would ask if I'm going on a diet, I'm not! I eat alot like other people which I don't know why I can't gain that damn weight. *Angry eyes* As usual, my family will be the first to reach my grandmother's place, we lived like the furthest, (CCK to Tampinness, see the distance we have to travel?) and we can reach first! (Wow?) Never mind, I'm not blaming anyone luh. :D It doesn't matter though. I think there's nothing special too, saying "Xin Nian Kuai Le!" to all the adults, collecting the angbaos, eat all the goody food and watch tv. Maybe abit better, playing games in my uncle's laptop and chatting with a few of em'. Hmm. Weeeeee! I'm so excited for tomorrow! Cus I'm going over to Church for steamboat, therefore, it means I'll get to wear another new set of clothes! :DD Plus, tomorrow is also a day Jon and I and Wei Leong and the girls first went out one year ago. HAHAHAH. 4:41 PM | 0 Comments Thursday, February 07, 2008
 I bet yah want to know hows things going right? :D (If not, you wouldn't be reading my post uh?) Hahah. OKAY! I start school like two days ago, I went back to 5A1. Yup, still kind of fine, may be more to nice. Haha. Tell you seriously, the class is damn funny, sometimes I can't stand what they said/do. I'm mostly hanging out with Darren and Jun Hao, and some other guys, and just yesterday, with the girls, Yan Ting and Fionn. (: All the teachers are still fine with me too, except Mr Ng, I can't be bothered with him man, I bet he is too. And this new English teacher, Miss Yap is it? She's so much better than Mrs Tan, I swear! I find that I got tons of things to catch up with, like revising what I'd learnt last year, kinda forgetting em' already. Yeah. Hmm. I went bugis yesterday too, okay okay. I know its a bad start for me to go shopping after school. I won't do that again. :D I went there to get a second set of clothes for CNY, 'course first my grandmother's place and second, the steamboat at church. I really need 2 sets of clothes. I got this blue one, a bf shirt again! Double smiles everyone! Its longer than the first one I got, so how am I going to wear it, go and find it out yourself. :P Remember the last time I said I wanted this strawberry pedicure? Oh yeah, I got it! This time, not all of em' are strawberries, only the big toe on my both feet. Check out my fat toes!   Its not very nicely done though, but never mind, for fun then. I think I'll do that myself next time. (: Happy Chinese New Year! 7:06 AM | 0 Comments Monday, February 04, 2008
Wan Ting asked me what will I be getting for Jon on valentine's, I said DA BIAN(shit)! :D Okay, seriously, I don't know what to get for him. :S I hope I can do some brain-storming and do something for him. It would be best if I don't have to bake again? Heh. Thinking 'bout last year's valentines, it was kind of funny luh. He made me super paiseh in school. Damn that chocolates I bought for him, I still can remember it okay! It costs me over 20bucks. Oh yah. I went town yesterday. The two of us, it was like I'm doing the shopping and the guy holding on to the stuffs that I bought. Hello, it's not okay? He's the one thats doing the shopping actually, and I'm the one following. Rarr. I wanted to do pedicure yesterday, this super cute set of strawberry design for CNY. Know how much is it? 10bucks per nail and on top of it, I still have to pay 15bucks for the I-dont-know, express pedicure. Omg please. It's so expensive. I will have to pay $115 for it. ): Anyway, I'm still considering............ Dinner at Yoshinoya. (: Had greentea frab too. (: x2 8:36 AM | 0 Comments Saturday, February 02, 2008
Omg omg. I saw the photos of the recent news of the sex scandal between Edison Chen and Gillian Chung. It's very disgusting. I don't wish to show the link here 'course I don't wish my hubby to see it. Yah. Search for it youself. Anwway, I didn't go and purposely search for it okay! SEARCH FOR IT YOURSELF! 3:42 PM | 1 Comments Oh rarr. Was supposed to hit town today but 'course Jon had tummy-ache, it was cancelled. I watched South Park yesterday, like so super long not watching it already. Okay, never mind. Jon showed me some episodes which were like super funny. Yah, like Butters' dad went to I don't know, I think earning money by having sex with gays to get a present for his wife(Butters's mom). Thats not the funny one, its disgusting. The really funny one was when Cartmen bought a guy's pu-s for 10 bucks. Pu-s meant pubic hair. That was so dumb. Hahah. And also the part when he put the pu-s on his face as facial hair. Eeew isn't it? (HAHAHAHA) I bet you can't stop laughing after seeing that 'course I really laughed! :D Aww. I'm starting school soon, real soon, this coming Monday. I went back to school today, lots of teachers came over to talk to us, Miss Tan even tiao-ed me. Omg. She's so the same. Omg omg. I saw this green bf shirt online, I want it P-L-E-A-S-E!!! The back orders are ending tonight. RARRRR. 3:12 PM | 0 Comments Older posts Newer posts |